Routine day with a few things to talk about

It was a routine day today. Got up, went to work, plunged in the daily struggle to make things happen and came back. Played with Aryan and now that he is asleep, am talking to you.
Day started with a fiasco at work - not my fault or anything, but started with a tiff and tension. Followed with meeting with IT teams, it was lunch time before I knew. I had to go to meet my tech team post lunch, but had an important ppt, about which I had completely forgotten till Nidhi thankfully reminded me. So I didn't go to meet tech. Will be going tomorrow first half. That means I don't need to leave like dot on time. I can leave at 10ish also without hassle of parking, etc. Actually my plan for tomorrow was almost foiled when AL asked me to meet him - for the same fiasco. But it sorted out and I sent an SMS that I will meet post lunch. So that's that for tomorrow.
Today after coming from work I was feeling very tired and not in mood for any much activity. Aryan is sleeping and I m also planning to hit the sheets now....gnite. c u tomorrow

Survived the day... phew!

Man, what a day it was. Office started early with my yellow belt certification presentation and then went to combat all the pendings of 4 days. People are definitely working much harder than I am, mostly by force and not by motivation. But they are. And the problem is that sb realises it. So I got a good dose of gyaaan today. But I took it well and did not show any resistance. Maybe I was in a pleasant mood after 4 days of respite. I was more tolerant of people and life in general. I didnt lose my cool, until I came back from work to my maid who had not cooked anything (4th time) and without any good reason...
Anyways, I m feeling much better now as I m listening to some good music. Actually Dev D music is much better than what it felt like when I was watching the movie. Some songs are quite nice and positive..
So I was telling you about work. So after meeting sb, armed with the gyaan and the good feeling to have avoided a tussle, I took up the tasks one by one, and before I knew, it was lunch time. After that again I had meetings to help me fly by the day. So at 6:40, I packed up and left - Mom had to go back and I had to come to Aryan.
Tomorrow again too much work awaits me. But I hv some new good music to help me sail by... CU

Madness begins tomorrow...

Have been at home for the last 4 days as was down with Viral. However, these days were very relaxed and nice. My mail access has not been working and hence could not check my mails, so was actually away from work in the literal sense. This proved to be healing and helped me get back on my feet very quickly.

Does our career instill well being or otherwise? This has been the toughest one, especially since Aryan. The grass is perinially greener with the stay-at-home moms. But the ones who have actually ventured to the other side, are usually ridden with compulsion than choice. I have read about the women who have made a choice, rather than follow the fate and chosen to give up their career and take care of children, and are really happy about it. But am yet to meet one.

Maybe these women are interviewed after the worst has passed and were equally regretful when the kids were either more than a handful or were too aloof to care. Maybe is they were asked then, they would have come up with a different response.

But still, all in all I am still wondering, will it work for me? Can I be an ideal homemaker and mom? Can I actually live without my career? Something that has been a part of me since I was a kid.... I can only know for sure after I actually go over to the greener pastures where I will be at home for my family, to cook, make a haven out of my home, love it, relax, glow maybe with the rest, be in shape, look fab even at 40!

Maybe I will know the answers only when I am 40....

An Immigrant - my latest read

I am currently reading 'An Immigrant' by Manju Kapur. Its a new book about a 30+ indian lady marrying an NRI dentist from Canada. How she faces her new life, husband, his shortcomings, etc and how gradually she opens her wings. I like her books - they are so Indian and nice. Somehow I connect with her characters - even if their lives are very different from mine - I hv never exp any of the things they do. But they feel close...

I am nearing completion and feel like completing soon. Next I will read Difficult Daughters from Manju Kapur again. Will update as soon as I get to read this.

Why does the success in corp world come with manipulations, selfish moves, being mean. Why cant colleagues be friends and humans? I dont really know and trust most people who work in the same place.
But this is really sad as we all spend most of our waking hours at work. I see the people I work with weilding daggers at each other's backs - everyone has a plan of action and game to play.
But I dont think I can be a part of this crazy culture which makes me turn inhuman. People might see me as not-so-open and a bit to myself, but in fact I dont connect to them. I dont like them and I dont want to talk to such people. I am uncomfortable around them.
One can conform to what other people expect, or you can go on doing what you think is right. Actually, to come to think of it, I have always been like this. Maybe thats why I havent had tonnes of friends.... But the ones I have are the ones that made me what I am....

Hi again

It has been so long since we met - almost 2 yrs. I dont know why did I take so long to come back.

Anyways, here I am to keep up again, this time for good

Life is better since my last post. Hv a new job - more fulfilling and all, but of course with its own shortfalls. But am more hopeful and positive in life. Aryan, my son is 3 now. Being a mommy is really a lovely feeling.

We hv moved to a new place which is better and bigger. But we are still looking to actually hv a good breakthrough from the rut. I think it will come soon - see I am really more positive.